My anxiety story

I knew that it was important to do this blog post especially as its mental health awareness week and today Im going to be talking about my own personal experience of suffering with anxiety. I've suffered with anxiety for quit a few years now its hard to say when it all started really but a few years ago it was the worst it had ever been i was feeling anxious most days after dropping out of college due to my anxiety and not being able to cope i was really struggling to feel positive i felt anxious when i went out to the shops or caught a bus i just felt like there was this big black cloud floating above my head following me around everywhere and it really was horrible because i didn't know why i was feeling so anxious all the time i would stay in the house and not go out much in the week and try and avoid anything that made me anxious and looking back now i know that doing that and avoiding those things wasn't the answer and really it only increased my anxiety because i would be more anxious than when i had to face those things and leave the house and i knew that something needed to be done i remember one night sitting with
 my Mom and having a anxiety attack and i said to her will i feel like this forever will i ever feel ok again and able to cope and she said yes you will this is something that your struggling with right now but you wont feel like this forever it will pass and at the time i wasn't sure if i believed her or not how could i not feel like this forever when i felt this bad now

 but looking back she was right because it did get better i finally decided that i needed help and that i should try counselling anything was better than feeling like this i thought and maybe being able to talk to a stranger about how i was feeling would help me and actually it did help i had counselling over 2 years and ended up seeing 3 different counsellors but i slowly found that i was able to do the things i avoided for so long again like catching the bus without feeling that sense of dread and going out the house more in the week it was the simple things that felt impossible for me to do before i could suddenly do them and actually enjoy going out the house and i even started volunteering and socialising with other people something years ago i would never of dreamed of being able to do and i felt so proud of myself of how far ide come in those few years and counselling played a big part in that and really helped me be able to do those things and not feel that horrible anxiety when doing them. My Mom also played a big role in my recovery she would cheer me on and tell me one step at a time theres no rush one day at a time and she was right i really couldn't of got through any of it without her she was my rock throughout it all the nights i would sit with her crying thinking that i would feel like this forever she was there for me and i cant thank her enough for that she really was amazing and i love her so much for it so if your struggling right now just remember it gets better and it gets easier if your struggling ask for help your never alone and as my Mom once told me take it one day at a time.