My anxiety story

I knew that it was important to do this blog post especially as its mental health awareness week and today Im going to be talking about my own personal experience of suffering with anxiety. I've suffered with anxiety for quit a few years now its hard to say when it all started really but a few years ago it was the worst it had ever been i was feeling anxious most days after dropping out of college due to my anxiety and not being able to cope i was really struggling to feel positive i felt anxious when i went out to the shops or caught a bus i just felt like there was this big black cloud floating above my head following me around everywhere and it really was horrible because i didn't know why i was feeling so anxious all the time i would stay in the house and not go out much in the week and try and avoid anything that made me anxious and looking back now i know that doing that and avoiding those things wasn't the answer and really it only increased my anxiety because i would be more anxious than when i had to face those things and leave the house and i knew that something needed to be done i remember one night sitting with
 my Mom and having a anxiety attack and i said to her will i feel like this forever will i ever feel ok again and able to cope and she said yes you will this is something that your struggling with right now but you wont feel like this forever it will pass and at the time i wasn't sure if i believed her or not how could i not feel like this forever when i felt this bad now

 but looking back she was right because it did get better i finally decided that i needed help and that i should try counselling anything was better than feeling like this i thought and maybe being able to talk to a stranger about how i was feeling would help me and actually it did help i had counselling over 2 years and ended up seeing 3 different counsellors but i slowly found that i was able to do the things i avoided for so long again like catching the bus without feeling that sense of dread and going out the house more in the week it was the simple things that felt impossible for me to do before i could suddenly do them and actually enjoy going out the house and i even started volunteering and socialising with other people something years ago i would never of dreamed of being able to do and i felt so proud of myself of how far ide come in those few years and counselling played a big part in that and really helped me be able to do those things and not feel that horrible anxiety when doing them. My Mom also played a big role in my recovery she would cheer me on and tell me one step at a time theres no rush one day at a time and she was right i really couldn't of got through any of it without her she was my rock throughout it all the nights i would sit with her crying thinking that i would feel like this forever she was there for me and i cant thank her enough for that she really was amazing and i love her so much for it so if your struggling right now just remember it gets better and it gets easier if your struggling ask for help your never alone and as my Mom once told me take it one day at a time.

Why my Mom and nan are both my hero's

My mom and nan will forever be my hero's there the strongest women I have ever met and even though my nan is no longer with me she will forever have that special place in my heart. My mom has raised me and my brother as a single parent since we were young and she's been there for me ever since she is kind,caring,loving everything a mom should be and more she has the biggest heart and is such a strong lady she has been there for me at my happiest times but also my sadest and I really don't know what I'd do without her.

She also accepts my flaws and all and I have never felt like I've had to be anything but myself around her even though I can be crazy at times ha ha!!. It's hard to really put into words how much she means to me but I think she already knows that I hope if I'm lucky enough to have children one day that I can live up to her and be as good of a mom because she really is the best mom ever and I feel like the luckiest daughter in the world to have her as my mom.


My nan I knew before I started this post that I wouldn't be right to not include my nan because she has always felt like a second mom to me whilst I was growing up like my mom she was such a kind,caring and loving person and would stand up for herself and make herself heard. I loved that about my nan she wasn't going to blend into the background and be unheard by others she knew her own mind and had her own voice and she wasn't afraid to use it.  That's another quality that I loved about her because I could look up to her and see that it was ok as a women to be heard and I felt like the luckiest granddaughter to get to call her my nan because she was such a special lady and would do anything for the people that she loved and she will forever be my hero a women with a heart of gold. I hope you enjoyed my first blog post all that's left to say is see you next time bye 😃

My first blog post

Wow!!

 I'm actually writing my first blog post on my new blog I've wanted to start a blog for a while now and have always been abit anxious about starting one but here I am taking the plunge and I'm excited to see what happens.Now that that's all out the way I should probably introduced myself hi I'm Molly a 20 year old girl who is a crazy cat lady a pj lover and a big lover of crisps ha sounds funny evening typing it but that's just abit about me I hope there's more you will learn about who I am as a person throughout my blog posts and I hope to keep them as real as possible after all my blog is called molly's life and I will be talking about all kinds of different things including lifestyle a day in the life posts and not forgetting my crazy love of cats. I will be putting up my blog posts every Friday and I really hope you the reader enjoy my random thoughts and having a glimpse into my life and with that I've come to the end of my first post all that's left to say is until the next time bye .😃